For two decades I’ve kept a year-end routine starting after Thanksgiving, lasting through Christmas, and usually ending shortly after New Year’s Eve. I would take my cello out of the closet, and dust it off. I would practice for a few hours every two days, building up calluses anew. I transcribed Bach Cello Suite 1 in 2016 without any bowing, fingering or phrasing from modern cellists. And I’ve been playing the suite ever since, every December. Just when I no longer had to worry about finger blisters from practice, and when I finally rebuilt my muscle strength, I put my cello back in cold storage. This had not been conducive to the improvement of my skills. But I did enjoy re-learning to play every holiday season.
This year I took my cello out a week before Thanksgiving, and continued to play past the New Year’s Day. It was quite a wonder what a few more weeks allowed me to do. For the first time I got past getting the notes played clearly and mostly in tune. I could stop worrying about moving muscles, and start to feel and find the rhythm that I wanted to hear from my cello.
When I started in 2016, I tried to imitate Yo-Yo Ma. But very quickly I understood that I never would be able to do that. For one, his rendition of the suite was far too fast for me. His long phrasing and smooth notes were unattainable goals for me. I remember looking online for clues on how folks approached Bach, and stumbled upon Tim Janof’s musing about the suites from the Internet Cello Society. That released me from my angst, and allowed me to go about it my own ways.
Once I got past the mechanics this year, I started to rewrite my fingerings and bowings to make these pieces sound the way I wanted. For the first time in my life I mustered the courage to record myself playing. And I was shocked when I listened to and watched these recordings. That notes were not in tune was beside the point – that was expected. The explosive sound of the bow hacking a string to get a note started surprised me. At times that was called for. But most of the times it wasn’t. I also found a new appreciation for the need to sustain certain bass notes beyond what was written in a score.
I’ll be using recordings from 2023 year-end to continue to improve my delivery. I uploaded them to mark my foot-in-the-door moment. If I overlook the occasional noises and the lack of great intonation, I can almost listen to these latest recordings without too much cringing. I think that is a small personal milestone worth celebrating. LOL
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